I’ve read some interesting and provocative books and articles lately about our political leaders and policies, some hugely complimentary and some strikingly derogatory… lots of deducing and speculation on both sides of the spectrum vaticinating from prosperity to disaster. The authors engaged in connecting a myriad of dots… It got me thinking about the dots… about connecting ‘bits’ in time, and then how we develop a spiraling constellation of them. For me, ‘bits’ could be words, but also feelings, images, memories and stories…bits of meaning.
The mind universe I conjure seems to be made of bits, they seem to ‘flock’ like birds… a chaotic flutter, and they’re everywhere. And I am continuously engaged in ‘connecting’. And as a consequence, I’m off wondering about how I chose what I connected. I have solicitude over the veracity of the bits I’ve chosen. It’s not that I’m unable to be decisive, having made a 3 decade career of decision making over military service, and in junior and senior management. You weigh alternatives, make a selection in a moment of time, compare results against the projection, and then move on. Repeat as necessary. And at a more fundamental level choices are also made on a moment to moment basis habitually, in accordance with tendencies developed over time.
Nevertheless, while some are sure of their bits — conclusions and opinions, I often swim in a sea of dubiety. So over the years I’ve made a goal of attempting to cultivate a more ‘open’ perspective… mindful not to come down ‘too hard’ on a particular conclusion… which cuts off further examination. I’ve become much more appreciative of the condition of not-knowing. Final conclusions foreclose openness in effect by hardening a position…a ‘bit’, if you will. (A decision ‘to’, is conjointly a decision ‘not to’.) You connect enough bits together and you can easily create a mindset. And while it is a construction of the mind, it’s also a system of relationships that gather emotional momentum in time, not so unlike a powerful weather system… the mind-constellation can be a whirlwind of turbulence in mind-space, or on the other hand, if held lightly like a gust or puff, may easily dissipate.
So I’m thinking whatever my position might be, however I gather my ‘bits‘, I want to look into how I’ve structured my opinion. How much have I invested my identity in the position…am I THE position…is it solid, or is there an openness to it…is there space between…are other possibilities available? Have I in the moment reduced myself to a ‘bit‘?
Inquiring further…Perhaps even deeper or more fundamental than bits, are what Rinpoche has described as ‘dots’. More about them here…
Even Dots Ripple…