I’ve had fun this week with our walk about practice, the one where we ‘look for openness in time’s hidden occupancy, feel it as a “luminous energy…like the glow of a living being at rest”. We are told to “Look for it in moments of beauty, of intimacy, or of love—moment’s when identity loses its hold.”
I spent most of my initial time looking for it, like a lost thing, as if I couldn’t find one of my missing socks. I rummaged around my mind like a cluttered attic. I knew it was here, after all it was here before I cluttered up this space with all this stuff. This prior of each conscious moment – this “‘zero’ is fundamental: the state or circumstance from which we depart.” KTS 95
And then I remembered how often during the day there was a break in my stream of consciousness, my mental ‘worlding’ away of time when it just stopped, the continuum of my expectations abruptly halted, because I was distracted from mental-circling — thunder-struck by beauty — like how the sun set on the horizon backlighting the trees in silhouette turning the clouds into colorful jewels. Or at another time while attempting to navigate a knotty problem in which I was engrossed, an answer suddenly ‘dawned’, and I felt that open clarity, that rising feeling of energetic fullness and vitality.
In an article in the Buddhist magazine ‘trycicle’ entitled, “The Game of Go”, it explained the game was much older than Buddhism, but that it was quickly recognized by Buddhists as a useful tool for Buddhist practice.
One quote caught my eye as it related to my search for the ‘zero-point’:
“Emptiness, in Buddhism as well as in ordinary language, does not refer to an absolute lack of everything. Thus, the earlier translation of sunyata as “void” was very misleading. Emptiness refers to the absence of something that, for some reason, one expects to find—as when we say a glass, normally used to hold liquids, is empty even though it is full of air. The point is not that there is nothing there at all, but rather that what is there differs from your expectations. The emptiness that Buddhism affirms is very similar to that in Go. The Buddhist point is that potentiality precedes actuality. There are no ultimate limits on the possibilities of being. Reality is open-ended in an absolute sense…”
I thought, well there it is, I’ve been spending my time slipping over zero-points as if they were banana peels. My mind is so constrained by what I expect I just slip right by these points. But when I am confronted with what I DON’T expect (and I’m not threatened) my ‘minding’, my constant ‘worlding’ skips a beat, and I am aware of my Being, presence as full-open vitality, and love of life…there unexpectedly, at the edge of the future… the luxurious taste of zero… ever new beginning…