I wanted to mention that during the phone exercise the other day, I also experienced that ‘flickering energetic‘ event that both Hayward and Bruce mentioned.
I began as instructed with the intent to observe, as immediately as possible, prior to descriptive knowledge. So I closed my eyes and exhaled to clear my mind. As one who meditates I’ve found this sometimes helps momentarily clear the air (mind) so to speak. This flickering, energetic quality began immediately, and the urge to know and identify what followed was almost immediate. The ‘what’ seemed to hang in my mind. It reminded me of the broken-record disconnect repeating very fast, that I mentioned in my last post. I checked my closed eyes to feel if there was rapid eye movement causing the flickering, but there was none. I remembered feeling this energetic flickering before during meditation. And then that moment was over, which lasted perhaps a few tenths of a second or so.
Again I remembered my intent to observe, I inhaled and exhaled long and slow to clear the mind, but the flickering did not return. What occurred was observing sensual input that was streaming in. Then observing the urge to know, and the involuntary describing the sensual observations using names, as I filled in the moment… this sound in the phone, that sound outside, this feeling against my arm, that one against my back, then, the intent to clear the mind again kicked in…exhale, clear mind…observe… and repeat…
The ‘flickering’ reminded me of ‘rapid fire‘ impressions, like taking pictures super fast, with blanks in between each firing of an impression. But then, the observation was not visual, it seemed like many tiny events.